Resume and thoughts on life

On the top of my "to do" list for the past 2 years has been, Update Resume. Actually I didn't have an old one to update, so it really meant, sit down and create one. Well, I can finally scratch that one off my list of things to do and I feel such a huge relief! It almost felt as ominous as doing taxes or something. Last week when I started, after working on it for awhile, my stomach hurt so bad I couldn't stand up straight (don't know what that was all about).

Some of the things that have been running through my brain center around the uncertainty of the world, hope-despair-hope about the economy and whether I am actually ready to get back out in the world and slug it out (this time with younger competition). This part I am certain of, I miss having a steady income and being able to go and do whatever I want and doing my part to stimulate the economy. It has been good to have to reign myself in and take a good look at the knothead I had become. From that perspective, I do think I've grown and hopefully I am a little more humble and a lot wiser.

I worry the most about getting caught up in all of it again, in ending up working with some of the same types of people and having less tolerance and less ability to stick with it when things aren't going my way. Maybe that's not the worst that could happen. I think knowing when to walk away from a bad situation might actually serve me well. One thing I do know is that I cannot tolerate the stress like I used too, nor do I want too. Just writing about it is making my stomach twitch!

So sticking with the worrying theme, I worry about not having enough, about Bruce who turns 62 in November carrying the insurance load for us and the security of his job. It just feels vulernable to me to not have a backup. So the quest begins, I've been posting my newly minted resume and looking at different possibilities.

Let me end though with this, I am so grateful to have been able to take time off, to have the freedom and ability to re-charge, renew and just be. I love being at home, the daily walks with the critters, even feeding horses night and morning every day of the world. I love being able to spend days at a time in Hurricane with my family and friends, and I have treasured every one of you that have made the trek to Colorado to explore and hang out, that is time and memories that are very dear to me. So the thought I throw to the universe is this...I would like a great job, with travel, working with and for incredible, talented, intelligent, fun loving people. Making a great income with great benefits that allows me the freedom to wander, explore, be with friends and family and to thrive!

You were meant for the greatest of things.
For Summer nights and angel wings.
For hopes and dreams to understand
For ocean breeze and pure white sand.
For laughs and wishes in the night
For life and love and all that's right.
This is what you're all about.
Be true to yourself.
Take your next flight out.