Resume and thoughts on life

On the top of my "to do" list for the past 2 years has been, Update Resume. Actually I didn't have an old one to update, so it really meant, sit down and create one. Well, I can finally scratch that one off my list of things to do and I feel such a huge relief! It almost felt as ominous as doing taxes or something. Last week when I started, after working on it for awhile, my stomach hurt so bad I couldn't stand up straight (don't know what that was all about).

Some of the things that have been running through my brain center around the uncertainty of the world, hope-despair-hope about the economy and whether I am actually ready to get back out in the world and slug it out (this time with younger competition). This part I am certain of, I miss having a steady income and being able to go and do whatever I want and doing my part to stimulate the economy. It has been good to have to reign myself in and take a good look at the knothead I had become. From that perspective, I do think I've grown and hopefully I am a little more humble and a lot wiser.

I worry the most about getting caught up in all of it again, in ending up working with some of the same types of people and having less tolerance and less ability to stick with it when things aren't going my way. Maybe that's not the worst that could happen. I think knowing when to walk away from a bad situation might actually serve me well. One thing I do know is that I cannot tolerate the stress like I used too, nor do I want too. Just writing about it is making my stomach twitch!

So sticking with the worrying theme, I worry about not having enough, about Bruce who turns 62 in November carrying the insurance load for us and the security of his job. It just feels vulernable to me to not have a backup. So the quest begins, I've been posting my newly minted resume and looking at different possibilities.

Let me end though with this, I am so grateful to have been able to take time off, to have the freedom and ability to re-charge, renew and just be. I love being at home, the daily walks with the critters, even feeding horses night and morning every day of the world. I love being able to spend days at a time in Hurricane with my family and friends, and I have treasured every one of you that have made the trek to Colorado to explore and hang out, that is time and memories that are very dear to me. So the thought I throw to the universe is this...I would like a great job, with travel, working with and for incredible, talented, intelligent, fun loving people. Making a great income with great benefits that allows me the freedom to wander, explore, be with friends and family and to thrive!

You were meant for the greatest of things.
For Summer nights and angel wings.
For hopes and dreams to understand
For ocean breeze and pure white sand.
For laughs and wishes in the night
For life and love and all that's right.
This is what you're all about.
Be true to yourself.
Take your next flight out.

What if?

It's a normal day, nothing extraordinary happening, you are walking down a path or hallway or sidewalk that you've been down many times before, but today there is a purple piece of paper you notice in the middle of your path. Your first thought is to just pass it by, but on second thought, you bend down, pick it up, unfold it and read the following...

...it is no accident that you are here today. You know deep within that your life is at a choice point. Perhaps you know exactly what's next but can't make the first move. Or maybe you just know there's something missing. Ask yourself these questions....

What if you had the power to recreate your life?
What would you hang onto?
What would you let go of?
What are your dreams and wishes?

More from the weekend

Some more random shots from the weekend. The deer is real, honest! He was just grazing away on someone's lawn, unbelievable!

People must think we're crazy because we're always trying to take pictures of the 2 of us with the timers on the camera. The fun is to try to beat the timer and get a funny picture, this one as you can see, I didn't beat it, but a good hair shot anyway!

And one where we both made it. Check out my skinny minnie sister, wow!

Don't ask us why we're all crouched down on this one, I couldn't tell you. Must be so you can see the rock behind us!

Karen supported our parents in the "Hurricane's Biggest Loser" contest, she looks fabulous! My mom lost about 17 lbs and looks incredible as well. Me, I lost 8 lbs, but am still working towards my goal. After seeing this shot of Karen, I have incentive to crank it up a notch. Congrats Mom and Karen!

And today it's snowing......

This is my poor garden. First rain, then snow, then sleet, then more snow! None of it stuck but it is still 36 degrees outside with a north wind blowing. What happened to Summer and Fall???

Garden of the Gods

Yesterday was a really fun day and it capped off a really fun weekend with my sister, Karen. We started out going to a craft fair (it was a bust, the economy is really taking it's toll here) and ended up spending some time in the park. Here are a couple of my fav pics from the day.

The Shack

I finished reading and listening to The Shack yesterday and WOW! So much to think about and so much to absorb. It's hard to believe that it is fiction. If you haven't experienced the story, do it! I found it easier to listen to but I also read in between listening, the narrator just brought it all to life for me. I know you can download it on iTunes as well as get the audiobook. Deep....

Also last night I saw a new episode of The Locator on WeTV. That is such an awesome show about bringing people together who have been separated for any number of reasons, last night a father and daughter. After that episode, there was a new show premiering called The Adoption Diaries, and it is another great watch. The episode was about a young couple in IL that could not have children of their own so it followed their journey through an open adoption. It showed the emotions from all sides and was emotional to watch, but well worth it. Left me with a lot to ponder on this beautiful Sunday.

Picnic in Grafton

I had the most fun week in Hurricane last week. It all started with Peach days and hanging out with family. The first night I was in town, I got to have Brecken and Kenzie spend time at my house with me. Kenzie spent the night and we got rocked out of our beds around midnight with a huge, beautiful thunderstorm. On Saturday after the parade, Barry, Teresa, Kenzie, me and mom went to Grafton for a picnic and pictures.



After Grafton we headed up to the apple orchard by Springdale and picked apples, yum!

On Saturday night, Brecken came for a sleepover. If you look close at the Vette, you can see him in the co-pilot seat, great way to roll for little guy! We had a fun time eating, playing, eating, eating, eating, playing, eating some more, watering the plants outside, watching the quail, eating and making animal sounds (he loves the cow hides on my living room floor).



I spent a few hours discussing the woes of the world with my big brother, catching up on vacation with my big sister, hanging with my mom and dad and even caught the Sky Ranch BBQ on Labor Day. I got to hang out with Trish and Nat, Trish and Ryan, Andy and even spent time learning about zoning and buildings at the LaVerkin City offices. In my spare time I mowed the big lawns for the first time and planted trees and flowers. It seemed like I was always going somewhere or doing something! But it was a great week and it went by way too fast.

PUPPIES!

Yep, Miss Sadie is pregnant! By my calculations, given a 9 week gestation period, we should be expecting puppies the week of October 5th. Guess Booner can still get the job done. Fingers crossed that everything goes well, the puppies will be full German Sherpherd, long hair black/tan/silver coloring, smart, sweet and gorgeous!